More Like a Diary

So this doesn't really feel much like a blog. It feels more like a diary... A very public diary... That really isn't that public because no one reads this stupid thing anyway. This is really just me raving and screaming against the world. The cold hard world that doesn't care how you feel or what you've gone through and continues to turn no matter how hard you beat your tiny and ineffectual fists against the walls that keep you trapped...

We are all just tiny beings screaming against the wind...

I am a leaf on the wind. Watch how I soar.

Tired

I'm so tired lately...

I'm tired of not feeling, of this desire to curl up in bed and stay there, of hurting (everything hurts lately), of the long dark tunnel that is my higher education, of the pressure... I'm tired of not caring, of not wanting to leave bed... I'm tired of people wanting things from me...

I'm just tired and I wish the world would go away...

Update on life

Lets see... since April when I last posted...

I've quit my job... 

Moved...

Gotten a new job...

Started a new semester...

Been wake boarding... (for the first time)

... contemplated quitting the new job...

oh and I've had massive amounts of trouble with the internet at my new place... it's supposed to be this new fanged wi-fi that is supposed to be all hi-tech and what not...

yep... put like this it doesn't seem like my life is boring... but truthfully it is... quite boring

I've given up

If you haven't noticed I've sort of given up on the 30 day challenge... It just wasn't happening...
But I'm sure you haven't because I'm sure that nobody reads this darn thing any way and in reality I'm just talking to myself...

That's ok, I don't really have a problem with that, just putting it out there incase you do notice... I've given up

Days 20-22

Day 20: The Meaning Behind Your Blog Name
Well... I'm not a major people person, most of the time I prefer to be alone... and well yeah

Day 21: A Picture of Something that Makes you Happy
It's not a picture its a clip... I watch it whenever I need a smile.
Despicable Me... watch!! I know you want to

Day 22: A Letter to Someone Who Has Hurt You Recently...
This is rather personal and this is the one day that I will not follow through with... I hope you all sort of understand and if you don't well... sucks for you... life is full of disappointments

Day 19

Day 19: A Picture of Something you Want to do Before you Die

I've always wanted to go bungee jumping!!! It just looks like so much FUN!!

Days 8-18

Day 8: Your Dream Wedding
There would be absolutely no drama whatsoever... and at the end of the day I would be married to the man who stole my heart... that's all that really matters right??

Day 9: A Photo of the Last Item you Purchased

Yes the last thing I bought was gas... for my car...



Day 10: A Photo of your Favorite Place to Eat

I have three...

Taco Bell

Olive Garden

  Lorena's Mexican Restaurant

Day 11: A Picture of Your Favorite Memory

DisneyLand with the family over Christmas break...
It was totally amazing!!!
I love my family!!!!!







Day 12: Your current Relationship
Single... Very VERY single!
The point is I'm a strong independent woman and I don't need a man (Men are stupid)


Day 13: A picture of your Favorite Band or Artist

Now its the whole I can't decide thing again... you should just be glad that I've narrowed it down to a genre...
But I love artists like...
Band Perry
Carrie Underwood
Tim McGraw
Kenny Chesney
Miranda Lambert
Blake Shelton
Jane Deere Girls... there are so many more...

Day 14: A TV Show you are Currently Addicted to

Again three... Psych, Arrow and Criminal Minds

Day 15: Something you don't Leave the House Without

My phone...

Day 16: Short Term Goals for this Month and Why
My goals are to cut back on my sugar, and catch up on my school work.
Cut back on sugar because I recently had a bit of a wake up call in the form of a tragedy and decided that I need to strive to be more healthy I've already weened myself off of caffeine my next goal is sugar... this month I'll probably just cut back but eventually my goal is to cut sugar almost completely out of my diet.
Catch up on my school work because the recent tragedy i mentioned earlier I've fallen behind on my homework and well I'd like to catch up...

Day 17: How You Hope Your Future Will be Like
I hope that my future is full of love, happiness, and family. I don't necessarily wish to be rich my hope is to be well off enough to not have to worry, but if life decides to give me a bunch of cash I won't compain

Day 18: 5 Things that Irritate ME about the Opposite/Same Sex
5. The need to cause drama... strangely both sexes
4. The flirting with everything with a heartbeat... (not everyone, but both sexes have people who do this)
3. Wearing too little, it attracts attention in the wrong way... both sexes
2. Over thinking everything the other gender does or says... both sexes again
1. Not always able to read/listen between the lines...